Archive for June, 2017

6/23/17 ftf, wren

Happy travels, SL!  I hope that Burgundy treats you well.

Becca’s surgery seemed to go well yesterday.  Time will tell if the missing third eyelid gives her problems and if the cancer has been cured.  She was kind of miserable yesterday, poor girl.  Elbee was unhappy, too.  I brought her to work with me, and she moped around under my desk all day.  She perked right up when she was reunited with her sister.  She was also rather hilarious at work.  The chatty secretary is always pestering me to bring my dogs to work, so when Elbee was there, it was a big opportunity for CS to spend a lot of time in my office.  The hilarious thing was that Elbee would have nothing to do with CS, although she was friendly enough with everyone else.  CS kept going on and on about how she didn’t understand it because she is a tremendous animal lover, and I laughed inwardly, thinking that Elbee must be aware of my irritation with CS.  🙂

I’ve made some good progress at work this week and will do my best to keep the momentum going, although I do have to attend a meeting this morning.  This weekend should be a bit busy with preparations for my upcoming trip to Arizona.

morning

meditate

happy dog time!

yoga

work day

e-mail

submit insurance claim

lpc info to purchasing

am meeting

new hire stuff for Daniel

research

reconcile p card

calendar

clinical trials invoicing

set up AbbVie pass through sheet

Eisai uTRAC

Eisai forgiveness of reimbursement

complete first RATS class

after work

hike with dogs

take care of garden

phone mom

calypte 22nd June

Really being struck at the moment how much perception colours everything. I’m still not getting enough sleep – I was in bed earlier, and even managed the lights out sharper, but it’s a work in progress! – and being tired is a quick path to lousy moods. But, half an hour journalling this morning and I was feeling much more upbeat. I think it was focusing on writing, something I’m taking actual steps with now, opening up a feeling of possibility rather than all the stuff that’s not moving forward right now.

Because yes, I did day 1 of my 100 day challenge! Felt really good to colour in the first yellow square in my BuJo tracker this month 🙂 Found the smallest step/goal I could think of – opening Scrivener and typing something – and that’s lifted any pressure to be ‘good’ or super-productive. See, I can learn! 😉

I’ve also been reading about writing, and remembered how important an external factor can be in motivation. It’s a bit like my healthy eating plans: I *know* what I should be doing, and tons of reasons why, but it was the spur of seeing/tasting someone else cooking healthy food that got me going so well last summer.

One of today’s tasks is the meal plan for the coming week. I do make quite a chore out of this, but an enjoyable one – good to feel in control. So first, list out what I still have that needs used. Check the weather – is it going to be a salad or a soup week? I’m hoping the former, as I’ve been looking at salad recipes and feeling very inspired! Then, list out meals-per-day, as otherwise the grand ideas can take over. I’d like to spiralise something this week, but will I really want that and salad on the same day? And roasted veggies sound fab – but again, will they fit to a plan?! LOL!

First thing: decide if I’m going to the relaxation hour ahead of my counselling appointment. Because if I am, I need to move soon!

 

6/22/17 ftf, wren

I managed to make some good headway at work yesterday.  I also had the lovely experience of helping an exemplary colleague apply for a raise and promotion.  She was very appreciative.  My boss also approved my request for three weeks off in April.  This means that we can now begin planning our visit to Italy in earnest.  🙂

Becca will have surgery today, and I am keeping all paws crossed that it goes well, with no complications, and is curative.  I’m bringing Elbee to work with me.  She is a gentle soul and is extremely attached to Becca.  She’s also never been home all by herself, so that’s a good excuse to bring her in to work.  It will probably reduce my productivity, but it will be a pleasant change of pace.

morning

meditate

happy dog time!

strength training

take Becca to vet 😦

work day

e-mail

onboard new employee

Roche Final Invoice (due before 7/21)

reconcile p card

clinical trials invoicing

new hire for Daniel

set up AbbVie pass through sheet

Eisai uTRAC

Eisai forgiveness of reimbursement

complete first RATS class

after work

pick up Becca from vet  🙂

small hike with dogs

take care of garden

early sleep

SL’s FTF, Thurs 22nd June

Had rather a disturbed night’s sleep due to the heat – the problem with leaving the windows and curtains open is the light pollution from outside, if it’s not one thing it’s another…

Anyway, still here and compos mentis and it’s my last day at work today before my holiday, hurrah! Hoping as always for a quiet day getting things done, especially as a couple of unexpected issues cropped up yesterday which felt slightly like being stabbed in the back. The property valuer has randomly changed the value of a certain part of our portfolio and claimed it was due to Brexit and the hung parliament. I can’t see how Brexit has any relevance to this particular thing (most property yes, but not this, which is a facility we operate on behalf of the hospital) and the hung parliament happened since the year end so how it could affect the value at the year end isn’t clear to me. Argh! Oh well, I’ll be able to forget all about it for a few days from this evening.

It’s supposed to be a bit cooler today too, which will be a relief. Onwards!

  • intentional resting
  • STLs
  • crack on with list from yesterday
  • review everything so I have a clear picture when I get back
  • get supplies for trip
  • ironing
  • packing

calypte 21st June

Happy Solstice, everyone!

Spent a good chunk of this morning journalling, and went from “I’m a bit fed up I should do something” to feeling like there’s a zillion things I want to do and make a start on right now. Given a lack of sleep last night – I was still overheated, and I’m still refusing to switch the light off until ridiculous hours, d’oh! – I imagine some of this might crash and burn early on (like, gimme 10 mins…! 😉 ), but hey – I’ll take what I can get!

My main thought stream is around consistency, something I’ve always sucked at. I’m quite the dilettante, really, interested in 90 things and so flicking from one to the next as soon as anything requires effort. Well, that’s me being harsh on myself!

To counter that, yesterday was my 100th day of meditation in a row – woo! Not the first time I’ve hit that target, but first time since switching to Insight Timer last November. Two things from that: (1) that I totally can stick to things when (a) I want to, and (b) I make it easy on myself – 5 mins was enough to trigger a ‘tick’, for those days when I just didn’t feel it. So, no reason I can’t apply this to other things!

(2) was the topic of the meditation. The 365 challenge is having a ‘forgiveness’ week, which I really don’t care for. So, I looked elsewhere in the app and found a ‘Perfect Week’ set just starting, and have really enjoyed it both days so far! Yesterday’s take away for me was that it’s not about being perfect, it’s about recognising that you’ve become distracted and returning again and again but – important bit! – without beating yourself up about wandering off. Lightbulb moment: that isn’t just about meditating, it’s also healthy eating, exercise, sticking to goals, etc.

So. My usual want in this situation is to throw myself at everything – coding, writing, drawing, etc – because hey, I can’t choose! But I realise that’s daft. I might try to do a few things today, see what resonates most, but I’m thinking writing might be my ‘new’ 100 day challenge. Camp NaNo starts soon anyway, and I was thinking about trying a daily writing goal. Same ‘rules’ as the meditation: 5 minutes is totally fine, if that’s all I’m up for any particular day.

 

IMG_20170621_095427602I think this is me recommitting to my BuJo tracker, in a way, as well as resurrecting my LETS idea – Lowest Effort Turtle Steps (TM? 😉 ). It’s definitely me recognising that little and consistent is the approach I need to get past pretty much all of those ‘fed up’ things.

Feels like good timing, with the Solstice – and 100 days takes me to a little past my birthday, as it happens. And awful timing, given health stuff still being so unsettled. But, right now I’m glad to have a sense of getting on with stuff, or at least a plan to do so, even if it gets interrupted, rather than just waiting. Onwards!

 

 

6/21/17 ftf, wren

Happy Summer to everyone, now that it’s officially here!  It was 120F/49C at my mom’s yesterday.  I hope it cools down a bit before my visit.

There is already a lot of talk about the solar eclipse that is coming in August.  Many people are planning to travel to locales that are within the main path of the eclipse.  Is this also a big thing in the UK?

Yesterday afternoon I lost access to all of my documents at work, which are stored on one of the big servers.  This makes it nearly impossible to do my job.  I hope it will all be fixed when I arrive this morning.  If not, it will be an opportunity to practice acceptance.

I actually dreamed of yelling at the chatty secretary last night…

morning

meditate

happy dog time!

strength training

work day

e-mail

more CREAD info

check for JLM

meet w/Jenny

deposits

Kevin deposits & JE

invoice Suven (due Friday)

reconcile p card

clinical trials invoicing

Roche Final Invoice (due before 7/21)

new hire for Daniel

set up AbbVie pass through sheet

Eisai uTRAC

Eisai forgiveness of reimbursement

complete first RATS class

after work

mammogram

hot sore hike with dogs

early sleep

SL’s FTF, Wed 21st June

It was a slightly cooler night last night and I was able to sleep with the curtains drawn so no sunrise for me this morning!

Book group was nice yesterday, four of us turned up but the woman who usually organises it wasn’t there and hasn’t responded to text messages – hope she’s ok.  After the usual half hour of dithering about what book to read next, I suggested the Power by Naomi Alderman which has been getting a lot of attention here and my SIL recommended it so I hope it’s good!

Two more days at work now – yesterday went by in the usual blur of audit queries and trying to get my own work done, made some progress. Sometimes it helps to imagine I’m playing a computer game, shooting down Problems and Queries all day long.

  • intentional resting
  • call eye hospital – god, they’re annoying! have tried about 100 times and it just goes to voicemail. Today I will leave a message and hope they call me back
  • STLs
  • review the list and keep plugging away!
  • need to get Z to talk to chief – he’s been in big meetings a lot lately and rather elusive
  • food shopping
  • deal with some home admin
  • finish House of Cards