Some mixed news, and some happies.
Got a call from the surgeon on Friday afternoon to say she’d chased up the waiting list coordinator for my date – to be told that I am ‘not a priority’ and given the size of the waiting list it’ll be the end of March or April. WTF?! Surgeon wasn’t entirely happy with that, so she’s put me on the cancellations list. So, hmm. On the one hand, it’s good news that I’m not a danger-case (not used to that, after all the cancer stuff!), but it’s a very different message than I’ve been getting for months. I’m somewhere between “argh! I’ve been planning for this!” and worried more about how long this plus the second op will now drag on, but also a little giddy feeling of reprieve kicking in.
I’d already booked next week off work, thinking I’d be in surgery the following week, and decided to just keep it as a holiday. At least now I know I’ll get the full week and no sudden phone calls! That is a somewhat relaxing state, so let’s go with that 🙂
Talking of relaxing, I did manage both the pizza and the relaxation session on Thursday – and it was amazing! I was handed a pillow and blanket when I went in, and lay down to listen to the gentle music and visualisation – and actually fell asleep for a bit! Not like me, but left feeling amazing! So, given the current situation, going to see if I can swing a long lunch or two for the next several weeks to go back to that. Should be fine from work’s view, as long as the making up the time doesn’t end up stressing me more!
Because my only feasible plan now, I guess, is just to keep my stress levels as low as possible for the next two months Which is an excuse for treats and being super-nice to myself 🙂 Although I do now have to stop eating like I’m going to be on nothing but soup for the next week – ahem! 😉 With that in mind, I fancy investigating ‘Buddha bowls’ – anyone here had any experience? Healthy food + pretty seems like good motivation.
Yesterday was not healthy but it was AWESOME fun! Me, K and E had booked complimentary pamper sessions at 2 beauty counters in John Lewis, so I had a hand massage and some ‘dramatic’ eye make up done. Feeling quite inspired – which happens every so often! – to experiment and practice a bit more with my make up, because why not? 🙂 After that we went back to E’s for pizza and DVDs, and to help K polish off the bottle of Moet & Chandon that she won last month – woo! 🙂 SUCH a good night, feeling very grateful for friends and fun and frippary 🙂
So yes, plans for more fun in my life include doing stuff like that more often 🙂 Also pondering treating myself to more make up, and a new indulgent couch-throw, as E’s was *amazing*.
After all that, today is for chillaxing – bath and reading and TV binge and meditation 🙂 I might yet pick away at some of my currently-planned ‘projects’, which include:
- shoe audit – photos and a clear out
- sort through my scarves – knowing what I have will let me buy some new ones, guilt-free, and I’ll need them even more now to keep the scar out of the sun 😦
- trying out the graphics tablet! Wooo! Can’t believe I’ve not been home/awake enough for this since it arrived on Wednesday
- set up my BuJo for Feb – especially as I seem likely to now ‘have’ a whole Feb!
- research Buddha bowls
- turn my spare room into my ‘creative sanctuary’ aka tidy up 😉
- continue reading The Joy Diet – attempt 600, I’m sure, but it’s going well. Might be the first time I’ve reached item 3, which I think is ‘desire’ – sounds like it ties perfectly with my current mindset!
Which is a lot, but stuff I fancy doing without making into a big fuss (was reading an article about What if we quit setting goals? which hit a few chords!). All sort of feels organisational and foundation stuff, before taking on anything more – and there is more! Two months (admittedly, cancellations list may shorten that, but my brain craves planning!) is a pretty good span of time to devote to things. Hugely unfortunately, I cancelled my gym membership during the week, thinking I’d be out of action for months – argh! Of course, may not have used it, but not having it makes me feel that I might’ve – so, hmm! But, other options are available, so onwards!