It’s odd how good news doesn’t necessarily make you happy – I’ve had a really low couple of days, for some reason. I think perhaps it’s the expectation that right: this is everything back to normal now – but I’m still sore and a little raw (there was bleeding – never something to put you in a good frame of mind!), and so very emotionally bruised. So normality is in front of me, but I’m facing it in still a sub-par condition – that’s almost harder than facing the truly awful stuff. I started all this with the thought, “When it’s over, I’ll do x, y, z. This is the spur for such improvements” – and yet, it’s ‘over’ (in some respects), and I feel *less* capable of facing these things than ever. Well, such is my current theory of low moods!
And I know a lot of the advice will be around getting out there, doing stuff, etc etc – but not always helpful advice when that’s exactly what you can’t face!
Today, though, I’m determined to at least try. There was advice about ‘even a short walk each day’ which I wanted to take, and have been really rubbish with. The weather really hasn’t helped with that, of course! So that’s goal #1 of the day: get outside for something! I have to fight my usual paralysis: oh, but where? Cinema, shop 1, shop 2, coffee shop to write? Too many choices – doesn’t matter, just go do one thing. Make it a short one for today, perhaps, something more tomorrow.
Also on today’s list, such mundane items as laundry, and posting a book review. I also want to rewatch Winter Soldier ahead of seeing Civil War tomorrow – looking forward to that! I think I need more things to look forward to.
Yesterday wasn’t a complete washout: I KonMari’ed my sock drawer! Will have to do after photos, even though I forgot the ‘before’ (just, jumble of balled up socks). I have to say, it really appeals to my inner control freak – in fact, I already want to get some dividers, make it more regimented! LOL! I want to tackle the t-shirt drawer first, right enough – my “oh, I’ll be ‘filing’ it soon” attitude of a good month or so has left a bit of a mess.
I also made ‘potstickers’, or gyoza dumplings – my version of, at any rate. I like the idea of them, but the steamed versions in restaurants were disappointing – so I baked mine. Just veggie ones, but I did my own dough. Maybe not really worth the effort, but glad I gave it a go. And there’s a life lesson.
Here’s to a better day – followed by a better day again, right?! 🙂