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12/31/12 ftf, wren

A snowy forecast and a night of severe stomach pain kept me from making the long drive to Los Angeles for a reunion with my friends.  It all worked out, though, because I ended up Skyping in to their meeting.  This was the first time I’d ever Skyped, and it turned out to me a great solution to problems of space and time.  As you might recall, my one-word goal for 2013 is “self-love.”  Would you believe that when the leader of the meeting was asked to pick a topic, he chose the topic “self-love?”  That little bit of synchronicity made me feel as if I am on the right track.

Happy 2013 to all my ftf friends.  I’m looking forward to another year of growth and support and of making the most out of most days!  My focus areas for the coming year are all about self-love through 1) healthy eating and exercise, 2) deepening my family relationships, 3) completing one painting, 4) learning 3 new piano pieces, 5) cultivating tolerance of others and of myself, and 6) having some adventures.

As for today, I plan to:

Bundle up and enjoy some early morning happy dog time

do 30 minutes of strength training,

followed by 30 minutes of cardio

play piano

do art therapy

tidy up the house

spend 15 minutes in long-overdue guest room cleaning

soak and read

devote 30 minutes to letter writing

enjoy an evening walk with J & the dogs

Moosie NYE and 2013 top goals

Morning all and Happy New Year’s Eve!! Hope you’ve all been enjoying the festive season… we don’t have any plans for tonight but I think I’ll try and stay up if I can, if only because I seem to have a lot of things still to finish up before the end of the year!

  • bit of writing
  • bit of piano
  • SWIM
  • Shopping: towels! presents, food
  • journal/thinky time
  • finish off piano hours
  • bit of singing?
  • find last form and submit tax return
  • kanji testing (throughout the day – still got 28 pages to do argh)
  • cleaning
  • bath?!
  • More writing time tonight if B falls asleep 😉

And here are my top-ten goals for 2013:

1) NEVER get depressed.

2) Weigh 140 (2lb/wk) [sub-goal: 70kg by mid-Nov, 1kg/wk] [sub-goal: LWY by start of Spring/2Q] [sub-goal: sub-200 by birthday] Never have a week losing less than 2lb.

3) Observe an exercise regime and meal programme that works for me and ticks over in the background. Never have a wholly sedentary day. Never have a week where I miss my base-line (4×4)

4) Combined practice target of 720-730 hours or more (15h/week on average)

5) Finish writing 3rd album and record (acoustic)

6) Be gig-ready on guitar

7) Learn the rest of my 常用漢字  (standard kanji) and be able to write any character from the reading/meaning

8) Read Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire in Russian

9) Pay off our remaining debt

10) Keep an immaculate and inspiring home

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12/28/12 ftf, wren

I really enjoyed completing the 2013 workbook yesterday.  It took longer than expected, but it was really worth it.  My word for 2013 is “self-love.”  I feel embarrassed even admitting that.  It feels wrong and indulgent, which is probably a good example of why it is the right choice for me.

Now that the day for my all-day zoom to Los Angeles is near, I am feeling awfully anxious.  It’s so nice and cozy at home, and there are plenty of things to do here.  Blah, blah, blah.  I wonder if I’ll actually do it?

I invested in a book on trigger point therapy and started following it’s instructions yesterday.  I’m planning to use the treatments for my foot pain and also some hand pain that’s become chronic.  It will be interesting to see if it’s effective.  The reasoning behind it seems sound, and after working on the trigger points in the shin on and off yesterday, I do feel something that might be improvement.  Time will tell.  Following the trigger point treatments falls under my watchword for 2013.

Happy Dog Time!

work with Becca on her recall

cardio

piano

art therapy

change sheets on bed

clean bathroom

record some cds

gas up & wash car

payroll

soak & read

start letter to mom

decide what to wear for weekend, assuming I actually go

pack for weekend, assuming I actually go

evening walk

SL’s FTF, Friday 28th December

Back in the Zoo briefly for a day and a half to get turned round, as tomorrow we’re off to Burgundy bright and early on the Eurostar! I’m going with wine merchant friend Andrew, the lovely Alan (the nicest person I’ve ever met), and G – it should be fantastic. G and I are coming back next Wednesday as a whole week is a bit too hard on the liver 😉 We’re staying in a village outside Beaune with no shops so our key goal tomorrow is to buy enough food in the supermarket to ensure that we have sufficient stocks to get us through New Year and rationing will not need to be introduced, which would kill the mood rather.

Had a very nice time at home, it was enforced relaxation as there wasn’t much to do except read, stroke cats, play piano, and watch the odd film. We went for the occasional walk down to the reservoir too, where the water was going over the dam in a very spectacular fashion. Quite a change from earlier in the year when the reservoir was practically dried up. Now it just won’t stop raining! Also saw Skyfall at last with Mum, which we both enjoyed. The tube bit was quite scary – well, Cate has always told us best to avoid the District Line 😉

Today will be mainly sorting stuff out and getting ready for tomorrow. G will rock up at some point demanding to be fed and wants to resume watching Department S which is a box set we have that’s even worse than Jason King, if such a thing is possible. Better get it over with, I suppose. If only he would watch brilliant Scandi drama instead.

  • coffee and surf
  • complex logistical emails with G about what food and drink to take on the train with us tomorrow!
  • get up – today’s a day for a luxurious bath!
  • take some stuff to recycling
  • pop into the office to water the plants and check Ben’s ok – our own personal Jesus is working between Xmas and New Year but I have a feeling he’ll be by himself, unless ace colleague Z is there too
  • a spot of essential shopping
  • send back necklace that bore no relation to photo 
  • call bank
  • ironing
  • make  a start on packing
  • update wine blog with random stuff
  • if time, piano – am so rusty and want to get it back!
  • dinner with G
  • early night

Moosie Friday, 28 December

Yesterday was good – I had a good swim, did a fair bit of music, and spent some more time defining things for next year. I’m leaning towards Tenacity as my word for 2013, I think it sums up my fighting spirit and determination to be completely unyielding when it comes to two or three of my main goals next year. Still thinking about it though. Have enjoyed reading Madam Ish’s new blog this morning!

Today I’m meeting up with my friend B who is visiting from Japan with her very small daughter! We were teachers together in the same town and she was one of the most dependable and hilarious people I’ve ever met – in particular she really helped me out when I was in hospital there and I’ve never forgotten that. She also has this uncrushable sense of fun and last time she was here I tied her to a lamp post by the strings of her cagoule! So I’m expecting lots of laughs today. Tomorrow we have a big family gathering with my aunt’s family so I don’t suppose I’ll get anything done on goals until Sunday – just the way the Christmas cookie crumbles! And then we have three days to ourselves and it’s back to work! I wish the holidays could go on forever!

Today then:

  • morning journal time
  • day out! Remember camera, have fun, walk as much as possible and make wise food choices
  • Maybe some music when I get home if there’s time
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Miss E – 2013!

Hi all, I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. Mine was great, I’ve eaten myself silly and got lots of lovely things, did lots of chilling and spent a lot of time with the parrots…

Tonight is my last opportunity to write anything as I’m entertaining D for the rest of the year, including Christmas: Part Two!

I’ve been meaning to do this for ages and I’ve had lots of thoughts swirling in my mind, usually at the most inopportune moments (in the shower, on the loo, just before bed, at work) and so have just jotted a few down on my utility spreadsheet which I’m going to expand on here and edit here (mentally, don’t worry you’ll only have to read the final ones I choose!), so apologies if this is a long one 🙂

Before I launch into next year, I want to say a few words about this. It’s been, on balance, a lovely year. I’ve settled into my medication (and have forgotten it on a couple of occasions which made me realise how wonderful it is), friendships have grown and new ones have been made, I’ve become rooted in my local community (thanks mainly to Twitter!), visited new places (Vienna and Italy) and finally, I have D. If you’d have told me this time last year that I’d have a wonderful, amazing, gorgeous boyfriend I’d have laughed in your face. If you’d have told me I’d meet him through Twitter, I have laughed it off even more as you just taking the piss about my childish fantasy. But it’s happened and it’s fabulous and it’s having a major impact on my future plans, which seems like the perfect juncture to commence…

1. Move in with D

Yes, it’s very quick but I’m not getting any younger and I do believe that when it’s right, it’s right. Nothing has ever felt like this. Admittedly I have nothing to compare it to, however I have dated before and it’s always felt disappointing and strained and tiresome, not full of joy and excitement. 

Our current plan is for this to happen in April/May. That’s when I get the last of my bonus (stupid work pay it over 3 installments, I mean really…) and can pay off, as you may have seen on The Other Place “That Last Niggling Debt”. It won’t make a huge difference financially, but it will psychologically and hopefully long term finance-wise. 

We’re planning on staying around this area, I really like it and I think he does too, so the stress will be finding a nice, budget-friendly, mutually acceptable flat and then the moving, which I haaaaate. However, I am so unbelievably excited about it I’m sure I can get through it. 

2. Health for Life

I wanted to wrap up all my health goals in one point. In bullet form, they are:

  • Lose weight
  • Sort out my fungal nail infection ONCE AND FOR ALL (I’m so sorry, that’s a gross thing but I feel if I say it then I become more accountable!)
  • Yoga & Kettlebell – increase general fitness
  • Consider contraception options
  • Go back to taking vitamin pill/oils – I have such pale inner eyes, I must be super anemic at the moment

All of these are to get me feeling better and more confident about my body and, eventually, to become baby ready… :-O  Yes, I want a baby in the next 3-4 years and I really don’t want to be a super fat Mum. Plus, I just feel all blah and tired and ick a lot of the time and want to regain energy and pizzazz.

As for the other things, foot issues and contraception will no doubt involve trips to the doctor (boo) and vitamins etc. can be incorporated into my daily reminder to take my Citalopram.

Upping my fitness will be the hardest as I am essentially lazy and get sucked into the internet and then that’s that. Getting over that mental block/habit will be the hardest but I absolutely have the time to do it and there’s no excuse…

3. Culture Vulture

I always always always want to improve my cultural life. This year I’ve not done too badly, I’ve read some excellent books, seen some good films and been to some great exhibitions and concerts, including some things I wouldn’t normally try.

This is a pretty trad and obvious goal but it’s something I do really want to do! I’d like to do a Thing at least once a month and keep up my cinema going. Exhibition-wise there’s the regular Wellcome meet up and I (finally!) have tickets to the Hollywood exhibition at the V&A so I’m starting on the right footing.

Reading, well, I think I need to start taking my Kindle to work with me again. I’m on the train for such a short time though that it often seems pointless, however I do have a lunch hour I don’t often do anything with and I also have over a hundred books on my Kindle wishlist and several I’ve bought which are unread.

Those are my main three. The ultimate thing from all of them is to just be happy and I think in 2013 I will be 🙂

12/27/12 ftf, wren

Lots of snow today!  If my foot were back to normal, I’d be enjoying some good snow hiking today.  I admit to feeling rather discouraged about the result of my surgery.  I’m having very little pain, if I don’t do anything, but there is pain with exercise.  I’ve cut way back to a couple of short walks, 1/2 mile to 1 mile, on flat ground plus 45 minutes on the elliptical or exercise bike, for a total of 12,000-14,000 steps a day, which is way less than the 4-6 mile daily mountain hikes I am used to doing.  Even with this relatively little bit of exercise, I have pain.  It leaves me thinking that the only reason I’m experiencing less pain is because I’ve cut back on my activity, not because of the surgery.  I’m formulating some further ways to address the problem but don’t yet have a solid plan.

Anyway, I didn’t mean to go on a tangent about my sore foot.  I meant to say that even if I can’t hike it is very pleasant to be all snug inside, puttering around and drinking hot tea!  I’ve got some big plans for today!

Snow dog time!

make & eat pumpkin-cranberry pancakes

sip tea all day

play piano

complete 2013 plan

art therapy

start letter to mom

putter and clean

start working on training Becca to “hurry”

investigate trigger point therapy

cardio

soak and read

evening walk

iTunes

Project Runway!